I got riled up about CAMH being proposed as the gatekeeper for SRS (sex reassignment surgery), which is being re-listed for coverage under Ontario’s health care system.
I really don’t like the CAMH Gender Identity Clinic! I think they hurt me, they wasted my time, and they made my family’s journey harder. I think their views [...]

I have the mixed, but mostly good fortune of being a fairly attractive person. I was hot as a man, and I’m still borderline-hot as a trans woman. I’m also lucky enough to be 5′8″ with a size 10 shoe, so my size isn’t a big tell.
This is the best photo of me as a [...]

My almost-ex-wife and I live suspended in our loss. We hung onto each other so tightly, and loved each other so urgently, that we managed to hold our marriage together through my entire crisis (eighteen months of craziness!).
Finally, the dust settled, and there I was: a trans woman waiting to go on hormones. She’s a [...]

Yesterday, I found myself in Richmond Hill, a sprawling suburb to the north of the city. The best coffee going was Starbucks, and so I was in Starbucks, getting a coffee.
I suspected that the woman behind the counter clocked me as trans when she took my order. When she turned to make my coffee, her [...]

The feeling I hate the most is the self-loathing. I hate it. It’s not the self-loathing of the apathetic, although it sometimes touches down there briefly. This is the self-loathing of the freak. The problem. The black sheep who just couldn’t ever get it right, and has now finally gone and fucked it up beyond [...]

For a while, my keenness for blogging disappeared. Life was far too complex and shitty. W. and I were desperately trying to hold our marriage together. Everything seemed too painful and too fraught to muse about in a public forum, even anonymously.
It had been so long since I had felt like posting, I had pretty [...]